This work is an attempt to write my way out of a dilemma I’ve had for quite some time. I say write, but to write I have had to search and research and re-search. I’ve read and re-read and listened. I’ve sat, I’ve stood, I’ve watched, I’ve observed, I’ve thought. I’ve walked and wandered and wondered. I’ve written a bit. I’ve agonised. I’ve written another bit. Deleted most of it, agonised again and started again. The process of writing about self-care this year mirrors my various attempts to identify sustainable self-care practices for over thirty years. Experimentations this year have been a series of starts and stops, learnings and un-learnings or re-learnings. My hope is that when I get to The End, it will also be the beginning of a new phase in self-care as a helping professional, one that is in keeping with my uniqueness, my nature and my interests.